Wow, I never thought when I last updated that it would be two months before my next blog. The very nature of my life as of late has proven inhospitable to nearly all forms of communication with the outside world. In other words, school (among other things) has struck, and I have been flailing violently in an attempt to regain my footing. But, God, true to His nature, has been faithful. I am learning to, as 1 Peter tells me, 'cast all my cares upon Him.' Such a unique concept. Here I am lumbering along embroiled in worry and care, and I crank my neck up to see a Savior inviting me to roll them onto His back for a change. Hmm... Do you really think I'm going to reject an offer like that?! But, it's sometimes a little easier said than done. The habit of solo performance is sometimes hard to break. It takes practice to learn how to look to the Director for guidance, rather than free-styling it on your own. It takes patience to wait upon God and His grace to sustain me instead of the drive within me to get things done. But, here I am, my back firmly molded into the contour of the concrete wall behind me with nowhere to turn but the grace of God. It's a good place to be. A safe place to be. It keeps you humble, and longing for more of Him.

- Ryan

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